Life and Storms

So, this week has been a week of trials and some good.  You often wonder why God tests you to the point of feeling as if you are going to break as you wonder if how much you should continue to have faith in Him.

The trials have included worries about finances as we wonder if our finances will be blessed.  My husband’s health as even tonight he may have had a TIA.  We had tests down this week and wait for the results.  Yet I worry as these TIA episodes are occuring more frequently in the last few months.  Then, his care while starting a new class.

As I start this new class, the webpage for my class does not want to cooperate – it is the only webpage on my computer not working so I was told it was my connection.  Yet, wanting to fix it on my own (and not listening to helpdesk), I decided to do a system restore and see if something was causing the problem.  Taking too long, I stopped the program and managed to crash my computer.  Yep…the computer that has all my important stuff on it and what I use for school  – crashed and burn. After much hair pulling, I found a way to back up all important documents and restored everything through a clean sweep and restore of my computer.

More panic came as I remembered all the software was still packed away along with any registration numbers, etc. for such software.  So, last night was spent worrying about all that needed to be done to find and reload the software.  Thus, this morning was spent climbing over snow tires and other boxes in our storage in search of software.  Managed to walk away with a few scratches and near falls but I survived the adventure and found what I needed quickly.  I was able to restore most of my laptop though there are a few things that need figuring out like how to restore my spare monitor.

These trials and storms remind me that I have a weakness that does not always call on the Lord in prayer.  I must admit I need to do more of it and not go into panic mode.  I need to rely on God more during these storms as my husband, even with not him not feeling well, prayed in the background.

Furthermore, as I fought the depression, I saw these words from a bible study called Girls with Swords by Lisa Bevere:

“Don’t allow the surrounding pressure to depress you or oppress you.  Don’t allow the enemy to cause you to imagine it is an invitation to a beating.  The pressure from all sides is part of a divine plan to mold and fashion you into someone with substance and depth.  You will come out of this womb of tempering, drawing a breath of strength.”

Yes, even during these storms and trials, I need to remind myself that God does have a plan for us and that I need Him and I will not allow the enemy to drag me into depression or fits of panic since I am a warrior daughter of the most high King and He will help me through these storms and out of the “shadow of death” or depression.

In conclusion, as I write this blog and study God’s word, I am feeling that peace and know that God is in control with our finances, my husband’s health, and even when a computer crashes.  Yet, now as I finish this blog, I was tested again and failed when I thought the blog had disappeared.

I won’t end with a question but with a reminder that we will fail at times even during a test yet we still need to focus on Him and submit to God and His will.

We’re still alive…in the country

Well, we made it to Medical Lake and we’ve had a few ups and downs over the last several days…

First, was a week ago when we arrived at our apartment and discovered we lost a few things along the way including an heirloom punchbowl.  Oh well!  Everyone is safe and well.

Second, came the unloading of furniture and trying to fit everything in.  A few cross words as I wanted things a certain way while trying to be grateful for the help from parents and family friends.  We were truly blessed when our fridge and cupboards with a bountiful of goodies while our parents and siblings blessed us with loading and unloading of belonging.

Third, we almost lost the kitty.  She was traumatized already from the move (and being locked in a crate for 3 days) and then I made the mistake of sticking her in the closet – out of the way from the movers.  Some instinct told me to go check on her and I found her barely moving behind a stack of boxes.  She was not getting enough oxygen so we had to quickly move her to another spot in the apartment and soon she was back to her perky self.  Then, for the next several days, she was awake all night wanting attention after sleeping under my bed all day.  Fortunately, she is getting back to her old routine of staying up part of the day and playing (as well as eating).  Yeah!  The cat survived!

This part was just the first day!  The last several days, have been spent organizing things, adjusting to life as sole caregiver to my husband, and waiting for service and deliveries.  Sigh!  Good old fashion small town cable companies are a lot better than national internet and dish providers who do not promise as delivered!  Fortunately, small town cable company was able to have internet (and cable) up and running within 2 hours…

The final blow came as I prepared to update my blogs and focus on schoolwork…I received a phone call about my son and yet I am too far away too help with the need.  When I became prepared to drop all to tend to my son – including dropping a class – the rug was yanked out from under my feet and my wanting to help was dismissed.  All I can do is put my son (and my ex) in God’s hands and pray for the situation.

To ease the stress of the last several days, I went in search of my dad’s property in Eastern Washington less than 2 hours away from our new home.  He bought it when I was a little kid and we’ve barely been there since so I do not remember which wheat field is his.  It has snakes and other wildlife so I do need to be careful – at least we have cell phone service out there!  Once I discover which one is his, I hope to turn it into a place of contemplation along with other places I have yet to explore in the areas surrounding my new town.

Even with life’s ups and downs over the last few days, I have learned that waiting is usually the best method and I do need more patience since life around here is a bit slower than the big cities of western Washington.  Furthermore, though I have struggled in a relationship with my parents, we re-discovered each other and understand each other.  The relationship has improved and I realized how great my parents are.  This has been a good move as we discover what loving in the country is like…different, challenging (few mom and pop placed opened on sundays!) and relaxing as we get to know our neighbors, new town, and adjust to a different climate.

As I face this new adventure, I need to remember as stated in Colossians 3:12-14 (The Message):

So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It’s your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.

What ups and downs have you faced in a new journey?  Please feel free to comment…

Stay tuned for more stories of life in the country including discovering that even the neighborhood cats will come when I call…

Overcoming Fear and Doubt with Faith…

The lyrics of the following song remembered and sung by millions, sings:

’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, “Thus saith the Lord!”

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er;
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!

As we prepare to move, as humans, we do have some doubts and fears like will we find the right movers, the right temporary housing, the right rental, will our cat survive…and so on goes the questions and some fears. Above all, the biggest question is – will we make it in this new land with our dream to open a community-style coffee shop?

After all, my husband and I have spent most of our lives close to home, family, friends, and familiar sights here in Washington State. He was born in Hawaii and I’m a true Washingtonian – born and raised here. Now, we are preparing to step off into this new adventure….Will we be blessed on this adventure?

After all, James 1:6-8 (NIV) reads: “But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.”

After all, I truly believe we will be blessed on this adventure as we prepare for this move.

After all, prior to this passage, James commands us to consider is pure joy as we face trials like this adventure as James 1:2-5 (NIV) reads “Consider it pure joy…whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.”

After all, we are putting our trust in Jesus and know that He will be there for us as we prepare for the biggest adventure of our life. And, as He continues to protect and bless us even during hardship, we will continue to be thankful and trust in Jesus through it all.

Therefore, after all, I am finding it joyful and exciting as we face this testing with this new adventure. I am looking forward to this adventure and the new life my husband and I will be facing in a new land.

After all,
I’m so glad I learned to trust Thee,
Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend;
And I know that Thou art with me,
Wilt be with me to the end.

What fears are you facing as you prepare for a new journey or vision? Who or what are you trusting to see you through your trials, temptation, or even testing of your faith?