The Delivery Process

Well, my trailer has been delivered and setup…though we had a few hiccups…like wrong delivery address and electricity issues…I have spent a couple of nights there already and everything seems to be going smoothly…even with a few worries like getting rained on…


First, after unloading and unpacking, I settled down…since it was a warm day, I sat on the front step and studied the scenery…on one side is a golf course and then the rest of the trailer park is surrounded by trees and mountains…plus, across, the street, is an old barn with a herd of cows!  Yeah!  I finally have my little trailer in the country…yippee!  Or should I say moo?  The simple life I’ve been dreaming about for a while…


Next, while talking to my mom, I had a visitor…a little kitty who I had met before…he/she wanted to come in; unfortunately, I had to put a stop since my little lady is very territorial.  Anyway, the little thing hung out with me before heading off to find another adventure…


That first night was interesting…I heard thumps on the roof…were wild animals breaking in?  Oh, how I worried…then it was a matter of adjusting to new sounds and a mattress; however, by the time I spent a second night, things were more comfortable…though I missed the little lady, who also missed me…and less worrisome.


Despite the ups and downs throughout the process, I am excited to live here…though it was cool “home” after church last night rather than facing the danger of deer on the road or even blinding sun to get to my other home.  Plus, it is about ten minutes versus over an hour…so sweet!  I don’t even have my laptop, radio, or even a working television yet so it was nice not to be distracted by gadgets except my phone…just enjoying God’s creation practically in the middle of nowhere…


<<sigh>> I once heard you are in the place you’re supposed to be when you’re happy…well, this new adventure called trailer is a happy and relaxed place to be…where I truly believe God is calling me to live a simple life while even ridding myself stuff.  I guess, after losing my husband, relationships are more important than stuff…


Well, at the same time, I do have other worries like how to light the propane oven, change the gray and black water tanks, and then supporting myself…yet, I also know I shouldn’t worry since God will take care of me.


After all, according to Luke 12:22 (NIV):  Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear…basically have faith for God to provide since according to verse 30 “your Father knows that you need them…” 


At the same time, don’t wait for things to come to you…like me, I am looking for a job; however,  I know God will provide while I work on ways to earn an income through writing or whatever God has in store for me to live this simple life.


So, what are you worried about?  Like me, I was worried something would go wrong with the delivery, which did happen but, overall, the delivery went smooth and I met some great people with my dad’s help…so trust God and unwind from worry…after all, like the delivery guy said, worry just stresses a person out so release the worry…deep breaths…and let God work things out for His glory.


Or, just bask in His marvelous creation…like my new friend who doesn’t seem to have a worry even after accidently being locked in a shed all night…

7 days and counting…

Well, the final week is approaching as we prepare for the move…it’s exciting and scary (never really lived so far away from family and friends before).  Along with that a host of other worries and stressors that include the following:

There has been stress and conflict; however, we take the time each night and discuss the stressful conflicts so we aren’t going to bed mad at each other.

Next, it’s been working with our cat to settle into her crate – which will be home for a few days while we transition from our current apartment to a new apartment across the state.  She loves the crate; however, I worry the move might be tough on her.  I guess all I can do is reassure even as she is becoming more and more clingy with me.  Funny though, when she sits in her crate for a couple hours, she gives us the look like – so this is a boring game, when do I get out?  silly girl – here comes more treats for her…

Then, there has been contacting utilities, cable and even internet provider to ensure I have internet access for school.  Otherwise I will have to type out discussion entries on my tiny little phone keyboard.  Oh, well, it’s better than not having internet.

Above all this stress, we are staying focused on the One who is providing and will help us through the next several days and months as we settle into a new life.  After all, if He is providing for the bird who landed on our windshield last week in the attached picture, He will provide our needs and take care of us according to Luke 12:22-25 (NIV):

Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.   For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.   Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!  Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life[?  Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

So, what is stressing you as you prepare for a new adventure or journey?  How are you handling the bumps that come up?  Please feel free to comment.

Move…Moving…Move…A Husband’s Perspective

To get a perspective of  the upcoming move, I’ve asked my husband to write the following blog:

Howdy everyone this is Ann’s husband again.

Oh, the joy of moving.

I bet anyone whom has moved will call it anything but a joy.

Pack it all up and truck it across state.

Then unload everything in our new apartment and start unpacking.

Why during the packing does unexpected sidetracks show up.

Even my health took a down turn; don’t need these problems showing up now.

I am fifty years old and during all those years not one move has ever gone smoothly

So what in your life is not going smoothly?

Then lift up praise to our Lord and Savior

You will find things falling together unexpectedly

Negative stress vs positive thoughts…which one?

Well, countdown is here…for the next ten days we will be busier than ever with the last round of packing, cleaning apartment, saying good byes, contacting utilities and other important people plus school.  Yep, while moving, i’ll be facing the challenge of having internet and still do my schoolwork…God give me strength.

Yeah, things are getting a little stressful especially as hubby faced a minor medical issue this morning.  All us well now but I pray the stress is not getting to him…it will be a big change for him (and me).

Some of the stresses included the following:

1) moving to a new location far far from family (never done that) though we’ll have know some people who are close by.

2) Going to a new church – hope we find a  good bible believing one who is welcoming and will encourage me as I work towards going into ministry.

3) Needing to find a job – to cover some of the expenses even if it’s part time

4) Taking care of Dene while at work and on my own…will be a big change without family nearby.

5) Getting to know new people – i’m shy and tend to avoid some social situations because the shyness can be overwhelming.

6) the move itself especially with our elderly parents driving, loading, and unloading…

Even with these stresses, we are relying on God to help us and looking at the blessings, which include the following:

1) Quiet, peacefulness

2) It’s in Eastern Washington – my most favorite place to visit

3) my dad has property over there that I can finally explore – just need to watch out for rattlesnakes (stay tuned for a blog on this)

4) Montana and Idaho are nearby – more fun places to explore!

5) My grandparents’ old farm turned to county wildlife park is closer – another relaxing and quite place.

6) I’m close to the Columbia river – my most favorite river in the whole wide world…it’s calming and relaxing.  I grew up near it and found it peaceful and beautiful!

7) Traffic is awesome there – rarely any backups!

8) It snows – yes I love snow!

9) blessings of our parents who are helping with the move

10) and the list goes on….

What is the point of these lists?  I was reminded as I read a textbook that negative thoughts should be replaced with positive ones.  The positive will help with conflict and you will be able to see things in a different perspective.

After all, according to Philippians 4:8 (KJV):

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Therefore, in conclusion, look for the positives and replace the negatives.  When you do this, your stress will be relieved and you will have a more positive outlook on life.

As to the answer to the title, I am choosing positive thoughts!

So, what negative thoughts are crowding your mind?  Can you think of anything positive to replace the negative?  Feel free to comment.

Perfection…To be or not to be perfect…

Well, my class Casting Vision wrapped up this weekend as I frantically worked on the final paper. Final papers are never my forte; however, for some unknown reason, I end up with great grades. Even with these grades, I spend time worried about the papers because I want that perfect grade since I strive to be perfect.

As I strive to be perfect, I ask – what is the use of being perfect? I mean, why do we strive to be perfect? It only stresses me and I become cranky when I try to be too perfect. My need to be perfect may have come from growing up in a family that never really praises me. Where no matter what I did, I never pleased them. Yet, now I focus on putting my effort to be get decent grades into pleasing and honoring God for giving me the chance to go to college. So, where does your strive to be perfect come from?

Several years ago, I learned a lesson about striving to be perfect when I was frustrated about a statistics class. After being stressed and talking to hubby, I realized that I do not need perfect grades to be happy. Even if I did get a lower grade, the skies are still blue and the sun still shone! After all this stress, in the end after a much more relaxed effort, I did pass this class with a B.

As for casting vision, even if we have weaknesses, God will still use these “imperfections” for His will as described in 2 Cor 13:9 (MSG), “We don’t just put up with our limitations; we celebrate them, and then go on to celebrate every strength, every triumph of the truth in you. We pray hard that it will all come together in your lives.”

Therefore, even if I do not get a perfect grade, I can still celebrate and be grateful that I can go to school and earn my master degree. Furthermore, even as I create “perfect” plans for our journey, if something comes up, I can celebrate that God has given us this vision and if the plans go astray, like not getting our cat into a harness or something gets broken on the move, I can still rejoice that God will protect us on this journey.

So, do you strive to be perfect? What happens to your physical body when you strive to be perfect?  If you’re like me, it wears you down.

Therefore, rest and know that God uses our weakness and according to Rom 12:2 (MSG) “So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it…God [will bring] the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.”  

Therefore, consider taking your “perfect” life and turning it over to God so He can use you for His perfect will.

Did the world end when the FM station disappeared?

Okay, so today, I drove down to my folks’ place to celebrate my mom’s birthday.  On the way down, I slammed on my breaks when I saw a deer o the side of the road.  Fortunately, he or she ran back into the woods.  A few moments later, I saw another deer that was not so fortunate at the side of the road. Afterwards, I began to worry that what if I had not started to slow down prior to seeing the first deer or hit the brakes?  I could have been an accident or even worse, destroyed the life of a deer…

Later, I was listening to a local FM Christian radio station when all of a sudden the radio switched to what I though was an AM radio station.  I almost panicked and tried to remain calm as I went in search of my radio station.  My worried mind went through all kinds of scenarios like “What if something is wrong with the van?”  or “What if someone took over the FM radio frequency or whatever that is called?”  Yes, I was worried.

Worry – we all do it.  Our minds try to think of the worst-case scenario when something seems to go wrong or even if it almost happened; however, we were not meant to be stressed.  Worry only distracts you while you are doing something like driving or trying to have a conversation with people or God.  Furthermore, worry and stress are not healthy for us since it can raise blood pressures and lead to other medical problems.

What can we do with stress and worry?  Matthew 6:34 (MSG) reads ““Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow.  God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”

Furthermore, Matthew 11:28 (MSG) reads ““Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me.  Get away with me and you’ll recover your life.  I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.  I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you.  Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”  Though life won’t always be easy, it’s great to know that I have Jesus at my side.

Therefore, we need to let go off worries about rather or not the world is ending when the FM radio station goes missing.  I need to be thankful that nothing bad happened with my car, the deer, and me.  That I discovered that the FM radio never disappeared since it was my tired mind playing a trick with me.  However, I have yet to figure out how the radio switched like it did on its own…maybe a bump in the road?  Oh, well…that is something that I don’t need to worry about.  Life is too short to worry about things like that especially as we prepare for this journey.

What are you worried or stressed about?  What do you do with this worry and stress?  I know one thing; you can pray about it and cast it at the feet of Jesus.

Good night everyone and may you get a good night sleep filled with peace…