Stepping Back in the Journey and Forging On

Hi everyone, I think I’m back…

Since it has been a while since I posted a blog, I thought I would give an update and let you know about my next round of blogs, which may be sporadic but I hope to keep them going once I get started again.  So, the last few months have been hectic with hubby in and out of the hospital with everything from strokes, infections, pneumonia, you name it.  Along with that, I was diagnosed with diabetes and so I have been working on controlling that as well as focusing on school and my husband’s health.

Thus, my husband’s care became more than I can handle so our journey has taken a step backwards…for the good.  We packed up our belongings and moved back home to Marysville to be closer for the family support as well as help in caring for my husband.  Praying he lasts a few more years especially with this round of hospital visits.  Even as I write this blog, we had another visit to the hospital due to an infection.

Even with what seems like a setback, we are still forging on with our dreams as we focus on my husband, our “new” home and my master degree.  Yet, even the master degree has taken another journey as I returned to Hope International for various reasons; however, I will be completed about this time next year with four more required classes to take plus two extra…

As for the blog, well, after a few more blogs about this latest path of the journey, I will be writing about a spiritual journey that is creative and fun as I take you, my readers, on a journey that will help all of us develop a deeper relationship with God.

In conclusion, you may be wondering – did we misunderstand God when we went to the Spokane area?  Or even with school?  We still have the dream to someday open up a community style coffee shop; however, we are not sure about the location yet.  Thus, look to the future and know that God is in control and He will help us figure out our next step in the journey.

After all, according to Jeremiah 29:11:  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

So have you ever followed through on plans only to have a setback?  How did you overcome these setbacks?

Perfection…To be or not to be perfect…

Well, my class Casting Vision wrapped up this weekend as I frantically worked on the final paper. Final papers are never my forte; however, for some unknown reason, I end up with great grades. Even with these grades, I spend time worried about the papers because I want that perfect grade since I strive to be perfect.

As I strive to be perfect, I ask – what is the use of being perfect? I mean, why do we strive to be perfect? It only stresses me and I become cranky when I try to be too perfect. My need to be perfect may have come from growing up in a family that never really praises me. Where no matter what I did, I never pleased them. Yet, now I focus on putting my effort to be get decent grades into pleasing and honoring God for giving me the chance to go to college. So, where does your strive to be perfect come from?

Several years ago, I learned a lesson about striving to be perfect when I was frustrated about a statistics class. After being stressed and talking to hubby, I realized that I do not need perfect grades to be happy. Even if I did get a lower grade, the skies are still blue and the sun still shone! After all this stress, in the end after a much more relaxed effort, I did pass this class with a B.

As for casting vision, even if we have weaknesses, God will still use these “imperfections” for His will as described in 2 Cor 13:9 (MSG), “We don’t just put up with our limitations; we celebrate them, and then go on to celebrate every strength, every triumph of the truth in you. We pray hard that it will all come together in your lives.”

Therefore, even if I do not get a perfect grade, I can still celebrate and be grateful that I can go to school and earn my master degree. Furthermore, even as I create “perfect” plans for our journey, if something comes up, I can celebrate that God has given us this vision and if the plans go astray, like not getting our cat into a harness or something gets broken on the move, I can still rejoice that God will protect us on this journey.

So, do you strive to be perfect? What happens to your physical body when you strive to be perfect?  If you’re like me, it wears you down.

Therefore, rest and know that God uses our weakness and according to Rom 12:2 (MSG) “So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it…God [will bring] the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.”  

Therefore, consider taking your “perfect” life and turning it over to God so He can use you for His perfect will.