Celebrating an Old and New Birth

Yesterday, I experienced one of many firsts without my husband…though they have been tough, I manage to get through each one from our anniversary, holidays, and other milestones.  Yesterday was no different since it would’ve been his 53rd birthday…though we miss him dearly, he probably celebrated with Jesus or other family members who have passed.


To celebrate this day, I went to the dealer to inspect the trailer with my parents.  Not only did I inspect the trailer I am now calling Mercy, I was given a quick guide on how to handle the many hoses, gadgets, and other bells and whistles that come with the trailer.


The appointment started with anxiety when I showed up and they weren’t ready…I just wanted to see Mercy and touch her again…after all, it’s been two weeks since I bought her.  Oh, Mercy is a name I gave her since my van’s name is Gracie…me and my husband tended to name our vehicles.  Well, anyway, after a several minute wait, I looked out in the parking lot and there she is…clean from a “bath” and ready for inspection…it was like welcoming a new member of the family.


Unfortunately, within an hour, my head was overwhelmed with learning how to hook up hoses and cords…and so on.  How to turn on each function…rather to use propane or electricity…battery power or electricity and so on…then learning the difference between black water versus gray water and types of hoses to use…and so on…


Excitingly, she comes with a ton of bells and whistles that include an outdoor kitchen and speaker system…an amazing entertainment center plus other cool features like the awning and tons of storage.


Of course the downfall is deciding what to keep in the trailer, store, or bless other people with…after all, I finally decided to be a girl and splurge on some cute shoes other than black flats…then there is my princess kitty who gives me looks as I pack AGAIN…but I hope she enjoys the new home; though I’m sure she’ll be content as long as she can keep hogging the bed.


Well, anyway, it’s getting excited and tomorrow Mercy is delivered to my spot in a really tiny town with trees and fresh air.


As for my husband’s birthday, I plan to celebrate my first night in the trailer with his favorite treat of cherry pie and sparkling cider…though I have a feeling he is smiling so I raise my class to a classic husband and the new adventure I am about to embark on…


Anyway, are there some firsts you are about to celebrate with or without a loved one?  How are you handling them?



New Concepts…New Help

Well, the journey with my  husband’s health  has taken on a new twist…an exciting twist, that is.

Because we are so far away from family to help, we have had to sign up for COPES…which is long term health care services for people who need it.  Along with COPES, we have had therapists and other medical staff in and out.  Some have been great help while others have been mediocre. We had to release one already for overstepping some boundaries and in the midst of the overstep, she neglected my husband.

Yet, even with the ups and downs, we have learned the following:

1)  I’ve had to release pride and allow them to help since I can use the time to work on school, job hunt, and other household stuff that they are not allowed to handle.

2) That outside help people are humans and I do not need to judge them because of the work they do.  One guy – who has been with us since the beginning -has been great.  He treats my husband with respect and is kind to him as he takes care of the most mundane things for my husband.  Even my cat – the man hater – is warming up to him!  Of course, he has his own cats so he knows how to treat them.

3) That is great to have someone help clean the house and other household chores.  It’s great not to worry about my back as I dumped heavy garbage into the dumpster.  He can even help clean and organize the boxes/furniture in my husband’s room.  What great help!

4) That sometimes you need to speak up because people like the therapists think they know more than you do about your loved one.  Yeah, I know they know more about therapy than I do but I also know how my husband handles things and what his habits and routines are.

5) That my husband is amazingly smart!  He has been training on an electric wheelchair to see if he qualifies – well he passed that test and now once we get through the paperwork, hopefully he will have one by spring.  They want to create a video so he can help other blind people use one – they were amazed that a blind man can use one!

6) That God uses people like medical staff, caregivers, and therapists to be humble and to show you what true compassion is.  That no matter how dirty something is that being a servant is worth being and that you need to be a servant back to these people because they are taking care of your loved one.  Plus hubby is being a witness to the original one and we are praying that his heart softens and we can win him to God’s kingdom.

So, yeah, in conclusion, it’s been great having the help and I wish we could treat them like good friends and family yet we must keep boundaries as we treat them with respect, compassion, and humbleness.   Now, I can leave for short periods of time or even during the day when God blesses me with a job and not worry about hubby…so yes, God is good and so is people to help out around the house though I do have to be careful that I do not become to complacent so I’m fortunate to still be able to do something on the weekends or days when we do not have help.

What have you learned if  you ever had a caregiver or other medical staff in your home?

The Shepherd’s Hand Brings More than Comfort…

So why do we want to leave the lush green land of the great Northwest and head to the dry and deserted land?

First, I think of the passage in Psalms 63:1 (MSG) that reads “God—you’re my God! I can’t get enough of you! I’ve worked up such hunger and thirst for God, traveling across dry and weary deserts. I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water.”

Next, I think of Psalms 23 (NIV):

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord

Last year, I discovered some interesting things about Psalms 23 during  a class assignment, which is known to bring comfort during trials.

  1. We have a Shepherd who wants us to take care of His people just as they have a Shepherd taking care of them
  2. We have a Shepherd who will bring comfort, security and hope through the provision of basic needs
  3. This Shepherd wants us to take the time to rest and prepare for the battles that come our way
  4. This Shepherd wants people to show mercy and goodness to others just as He shows the same generosity to people
  5. Finally, this Shepherd wants us to worship Him; however, God is at home rather He is here on earth or in Heaven and He is preparing a place for people in Heaven

Finally, this passage shows that a Shepherd will care for His flock while He expects those in leadership and His followers to care for those who are less fortunate.  This same Shepherd provided His only son as the sacrificial lamb to provide for the lost.  He did this became He delights in providing comfort, basic needs, protection and salvation to His flock as they worship and sing praises to Him.

Therefore, in conclusion, my husband and I desire to meet the needs of the people in Nevada and show them there is a Shepherd who will give them rest, cool water, and provide for their needs. We do not know how we will do this and at times we may struggle; however, we know the Shepherd will provide as we put our trust in Him and know with faith, He is at our side through this journey.

What are your needs at this moment? Do you need comfort as you face your own trials?