Last Thursday, as mentioned in my last blog, my husband and I attended a concert with Steven Curtis Chapman, Laura Story, and Jason Gray. Each had a story – one lost a child to a horrible accident, one struggled with a husband’s illness, and another struggles with a speech impediment. Yet God is still using each of them through a gift of music.
I learned something yesterday while talking to my mom. She mentioned about my dad was still being used by God for ministry – yeah! Good for him and amen that even though he just turned 70, God is still using him.
You see, he was a minister when I was a young child. We lived in a small town and I sat in the congregation listening ot my dad preach and attending various conferences and other meetings around the state as befitting a pastor with the Assembly of God. He left the ministry and went into carpentry to feed us five kids.
After that, life in our home seemed to change and I struggled with both my parents and being part of a somewhat dysfunctional family. it has only been the last few years that I have seen him change as he remains involved in his local church, even leading Bible study and filling in for the pastor when he is out of town. My dad has returned to the faith even though he was away for several years – I am proud of him. God still can use people no matter what their life was life.
I think of my own life – I’ve had struggles and I have not always been faithful to God. Even now, as I write this blog, I’m struggling in my faith as our finances get tighter and I need a job or someway to stay home and bring in my income; otherwise, we may lose the car – which we need – or have to throw in the towel and return back to Western Washington. Perhaps becoming the type of kids who move back with our parents – that is the worse case scenario! Yet, I am reminded of the many times God has provided – sometimes even at the 11th hour.
Yet, as I write this, my husband encourages me to remain faithful and I’m working on a bible study called Girls with Swords by Lisa Bevere and I am studying the faith chapter in Hebrews 11 and 12. These chapters are about people who had weaknesses yet held on to their faith even until they passed away.
Therefore, I need to remain in my faith and push forward as God continues to use me through this blog and eventually becoming a pastor as I earn my master degree.
You see, even during the times I struggled to “love” my dad during the hard times, I wanted to become a pastor like him. I hope to someday sit at his side as he teaches me how to put together a sermon or lead a church – though i’m scared when it comes to getting in front of a crowd of people and speaking. Yet, like the artists at the concert and my dad, God will give me the strength to do it to fulfill His purpose.
In conclusion, what weaknesses are you struggling with that are keeping you from your God’s purpose for your life? I’m praying that even God will still use you just like He is using my dad, me, and even my husband.