The Clydesdale and Prayers

Have you ever wanted something so bad that you would do anything for it?  You prayed and you ran scenarios through your head as to how you would handle this thing you wanted really bad?

This happened to me a couple weeks ago at a county fair where I went to see one of my favorite animals – horses!  There was a raffle ticket for a horse – a Clydesdale mare, of all horses – but I was determined to win her as I purchased several tickets.  After all, for as long as I can remember, I’ve always wanted a horse.

I spent that night dreaming of ways to care for the horse – though I don’t think the apartment management company would welcome a horse as a pet – especially one as big as a Clydesdale.  I begged my in-laws, since they have a field, and even called my parents who have a neighbor with a field

I was full of hope until the night of the drawing came and went – with no calls!  I wanted to rant at God for not answering my prayers then remembered there are times when He will say no especially for something like a horse that I would not have been able to take care of.  So the reasons for God’s no on this prayer request were understood.

After all, James 4:3 (NIV) says:  When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures. 

Maybe I would have used this horse for my own pleasures and not for God’s purpose?

Yet some prayers will be heard and taken care of yet sometimes God needs to say no to us.  We may not always understand like me wanting my son back in my life…yet I know God has a purpose for that and some day he will be restored to me.  Yet, other prayers like my husband’s complete healing are not so easily understand as I watch him fight the complications of T1 diabetes and yet he is faithful to God as he encourages those around him.

Yet, in conclusion, as I look back, there have been times that He has answered with a yes;   After all, Matthew 21:22 (NIV) says:  If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”  The yes answers have been about glorifying Him and serving His purpose like the prayers of giving me the right words for this blog or even allowing recent doctor tests to come back that said “no cancer” so I can continue to use my degree to serve Him.


1)  Is there times that God has said no to your prayers?  If so, if you looked back, do you think there was a reason?  I know some “nos” maybe painful like not healing someone like my husband…and I don’t have an answer to these nos.

2)  Can you look back and see where He has answered with a yes?  If so, do you show you are grateful even if the answer was no?

Who am I? The Positive and Negative of Who I am

Several years ago, I earned a degree in Human Development, which is a study of how humans develop along with some counseling theories and psychology.  During the course of one class, we were asked to interview people and collect “Who am I” answers from them.

This exercise is a way of thinking of who you really are as a person.

You can create two lists – one with positive stuff and another with negative stuff.

Last night I created my own list and this is what it looks like on the positive side:

  1. I am a Wife who has a wonderful husband
  2. I am a daughter who struggles in her relationship with her parents
  3. I am a Christian who loves the Lord with all her heart
  4. I am a cat lover since I was a wee baby
  5. I am a student pursuing a master degree
  6. I am a mother (1 child)
  7. I am a worshiper of the highest King
  8. I am a princess of that highest King
  9. I am an aunt (11 x) and a great aunt (3 times) with one niece in heaven
  10. I am an analytical person who enjoys working with data
  11. I am creative with a gift in creative communication
  12. I am merciful at times and need to be more merciful at other times
  13. I am beautiful …inside
  14. I am faithful and loyal to those around me
  15. I am a writer of novels, blogs, and student papers
  16. I am a reader of Christian fiction and textbooks
  17. I am an artist who enjoys painting, drawing, and photography
  18. I am filled with hope that all things will work out in the end and there is a light at the end of the tunnel
  19. I am an awesome person who enjoys life
  20. I am a person with a heart for serving the community

These are the not so positive stuff about me:

  1. I tend to tell white lies at times and I’m ashamed of them – people want honesty and a real person.  I need the character change to be an effective evangelist.
  2. I have a fiery tongue that needs to be controlled.  After all, James 3:9 (MSG) reads “With our tongues we bless God our Father; with the same tongues we curse the very men and women he made in his image.”  Therefore, we need to control what we say to people.
  3. I need to be more grateful especially to all that God has done for me.  According to the book Choosing Gratitude by Nancy Leigh DeMoss (2009, 29) “gratitude is a lifestyle, a hard-fought, grace-infused, biblical lifestyle.”

Though there are a few other negative things in my life, I need to confront these negative issues and not let them rule my life.  I need to be on fire for God and try to flee from temptation and negative thoughts the best I can.

Finally, how can I do flee from and resist temptation especially since I can’t do it on my own?  I need to call upon the name of the Lord and allowing God to work through me as I continue to go to Him for the strength to fight this negativity.   I also need to repent of my sins or negativity and trying my best not to continue to be a negative person.

So, what does your “Who am I” list(s) reveal?

Overcoming Fear and Doubt with Faith…

The lyrics of the following song remembered and sung by millions, sings:

’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, “Thus saith the Lord!”

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er;
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!

As we prepare to move, as humans, we do have some doubts and fears like will we find the right movers, the right temporary housing, the right rental, will our cat survive…and so on goes the questions and some fears. Above all, the biggest question is – will we make it in this new land with our dream to open a community-style coffee shop?

After all, my husband and I have spent most of our lives close to home, family, friends, and familiar sights here in Washington State. He was born in Hawaii and I’m a true Washingtonian – born and raised here. Now, we are preparing to step off into this new adventure….Will we be blessed on this adventure?

After all, James 1:6-8 (NIV) reads: “But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.”

After all, I truly believe we will be blessed on this adventure as we prepare for this move.

After all, prior to this passage, James commands us to consider is pure joy as we face trials like this adventure as James 1:2-5 (NIV) reads “Consider it pure joy…whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.”

After all, we are putting our trust in Jesus and know that He will be there for us as we prepare for the biggest adventure of our life. And, as He continues to protect and bless us even during hardship, we will continue to be thankful and trust in Jesus through it all.

Therefore, after all, I am finding it joyful and exciting as we face this testing with this new adventure. I am looking forward to this adventure and the new life my husband and I will be facing in a new land.

After all,
I’m so glad I learned to trust Thee,
Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend;
And I know that Thou art with me,
Wilt be with me to the end.

What fears are you facing as you prepare for a new journey or vision? Who or what are you trusting to see you through your trials, temptation, or even testing of your faith?