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So, where are  you with your walk with Jesus?  Have you accepted Him as your personal Savior or are you still in the stage of not quite sure you want to go in that direction?

Next, are you totally devoted to Christ, broken and  humbled before Him as you draw near and completely surrendered to Him?  Or, are you saved, yet you do not know what to do next?  Do you drift from one church activity to the next, not really know Jesus and who He is…not being completely surrendered, humble before Him?

For many years, and even now, I have been the person drifting from one activity to the next…after all, I grew up in the church and thought I knew it all when it came to the Bible and even how to act in church.   Yet, then my world came crashing down on me as my marriage ended and my son was taken from me…then I had to surrendered myself to Him and desire to know Him more.  I then realized He has always been with me even when I turned my back on Him during the marriage.

I haven’t been perfect with my walk as I still struggle with it; however, the more I resist, the more He seems to remain with me.

Yet one thing missing from my walk is discipleship such as not praying or even reading His word – the Bible – as much as I should.  Many times I shrug it off as too busy but I can’t be too busy for Him.  If I can watch hours of TV then I should have hours of time devoted to Him.

By now you are asking – is Ann rambling on in this post?  It may seem like I am but its about the next series of blogs.  I will be devoting time writing about that blank page or even a page that is a bit dirty but can become white and clean as you build your journey with Christ.

So stay tuned…I may not write every week or even write a few times a week, depending on my schedule.  I hope to have a few guest bloggers sharing their own journey.

So, if you want to share tips on your journey with Christ or have questions that you want answered, please feel free to send me a private message either here on this page or  at https://www.facebook.com/vsn63.  Your identity will remain anonymous…

Blessings, my friends!

No Longer a Victim but Victorious in Christ


Well, tonight, my favorite football team of all time- the Seattle Seahawks won!!!  Afterwards, the MVP Russell Wilson gave God glory for the victory…yep the seahawks overcame much to become the victor and the MVP managed to give God the victory.

You see, I overcame much in my life and I give God the glory for no longer allowing me to be a victim but a person victorious in Him…

After my divorce, I remember going home and sobbing my heart out and praying to Him after hearing a song “God is an Awesome God…I fell asleep and woke up knowing that God was in charge and that even if things did not go my way, He would still be there for me.  And, I need to returned to Him who I turned my back on while married to my ex as I was going down a dark path…possibly even death yet I was able to turn back…as God pulled me away from being a victim of abuse and a nasty divorce even as I lost my son during the custody hearing because of many factors which I will not discuss since it’s between God and my ex husband…God will be the final judge in this situation.

Even though it would take a bit more time, I finally began to return to Him as I involved myself at a local church, went to a counselor and developed some wonderful friendships at church and even work.   I’m still friends with many of these people today and have enjoyed their friendship and mentorship over the years.  Life would include being active in singles ministry, greeting, serving at banquets and other fun group events and surrendering myself to Jesus as I became not a victim but victorious in Jesus Christ.  We continue to give Him glory as we plan our next journey of ministering to people and hopefully speaking eventually of what God has done for us because we are victorious in Him.

Then I felt the desire to go back to school so I enrolled at Northwest and began my educational journey which has just one more year to complete as I currently pursue my master in ministry, which I plan to use my degree to help other victims.

Yet, even before I started that journey, I was a bit fearful and wondered if I could handle school and if God would provide for me to head back…so He played a practical joke on me by sending me on what I thought was a simple hike…not!  I won a contest to go rock climbing!  Me – rock climb?  I don’t like heights – after all I had a traumatic fall when I was a child…yet God would not let me remain a victim as I overcame my heights by literally walking off a really high cliff and going down with a thin rope and trusting someone to keep rope from sliding off cliff…that’s what God expects of us.  Life will get dangerous at times and bumpy yet as we face our fears, we must trust Him and let go of our victim mentality and become victorious in Him.

Then, I fell in love with a great man who taught me about faith as he faces his own medical crisis…we married over a year later and I moved to a new town and new home and new church.  It was hard to find a new church and get settled in as I met new people.  Yet even then God would not let me become a victim.

Now, my great husband and I live in an even newer town and we are meeting new people…the land around us is covered in a layer of snow and it’s, well, just beautiful…we may not fully understand why God brought us here.  Life has been a struggle since we moved here yet we are continuing to persevere and not being a victim of our circumstances.

After all Psalms 20:6 (NIV) reads:

Now this I know: The Lord gives victory to his anointed. He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary with the victorious power of his right hand.

and Psalms 45: 4 reads:

In your majesty ride forth victoriously in the cause of truth, humility and justice; let your right hand achieve awesome deeds.

So, are you still a victim of your circumstance’s or have you become victorious?  If you are still a victim, and even not, I’m praying for you…

Creative and Renewed Vision with the Heart of a Warrior


Well, as the end of one year approaches and another is about to start, I have been reflecting on my life especially as I spent the last few days going through photos and reading a book about Chazown, or God’s Vision for Your Life, for my next class.  This book is about taking your life’s experiences, gifts, and even values to determine your chosen path in life.

That is one thing that I struggle with as I ask – am I on the right path with my master degree?  In just 18 months, I will hopefully be graduating and hope to be in a ministry or even starting my own.  Though I feel God is calling me to be involved before He puts me into my own ministry…so involved I will be.

Yet, in the meantime, a few interesting things have happened in the last few days that have given me a sense of what I am called to do…almost like a renewed vision for my life.

First, as I examined the pictures, I came across a few cool ones including scenic photography and even my own paintings…I never really had the dream to paint yet as I study my art and even the photographs, I have a continued dream to use my gift of creativity for God’s glory.  Yet I wonder how will I make the time with husband’s care, school, and maybe a job, hopefully soon.  Yet, I must continue to trust God to work His Ways to help me fulfill this desire to use my creative gift of writing, artwork, and even love to create things with Legos.  Therefore, I hope to start a writing project that includes writing a devotional about God’s path in life so stay tuned…and pray that I can accomplish this dream.  Perhaps I even need to make time for my creative side before it goes away…

Second, I often wondered if I would ever fulfill a vision that was spoken over me years ago as I was commissioned as a leader at a local church.  It was about doing great and mighty things for God.  Yet, I’m shy and I don’t know if I can ever speak to a crowd of people to preach or even lead them to the Lord.  Then, yesterday, as I went forward to have my husband prayed for, an acquaintance – who I would to become friends with – prayed over me and she told me that she was given a Word about me.  It was almost similar to the vision as she reminded me to be a warrior and be bold as I would be reaching a great multitude of people!!!  I was like wow and all I could say was – thank you and that was the second time I have heard that message in my life!  Now, it is time to be bold and become that warrior for Christ.

Third, our pastor spoke about boldness and walking with God to fulfill His purpose in our lives.  That we need to wake up from our slumber and speak up in His Name and proclaim the Gospel.  that we need to grow in Christ and develop a lasting relationship with God as we continue to be bold.

Therefore, in conclusion, instead of a New Year’s Resolution, I will take one step at a time in this coming year to hopefully become a warrior in the Name of Jesus, standing up boldly for Him, praying for this nation, and bringing people into His Kingdom.  This includes building/rebuilding relationships with God, family and friends, spending more time with God and focusing on Him as I strive to serve Him more and become more obedient to His will.

What are your steps to becoming a better you in the coming year?  Is there a vision that you have put on hold or forgotten?  Is there something standing in your way?